by Jeanne Davies
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Saddled to the back of our garden was a
strip of allotments where my father spent most of his summer evenings harvesting
his spring labours. Brandishing the hoe, I’d march behind him holding a metal
bucket. We’d wander past our noisy chicken coup and into that special place
nestled snug beneath the shadow of the South Downs. I’d watch and help where I
could, shelling tiny peas that tasted like nectar and caressing the tactile fur
inside the pod of the broad beans which rhythmically hit the bottom of the
bucket. All the while I took sideways glances to study my father’s features
which gradually relaxed as his work commenced. His furrowed forehead slowly
softened as sweat clung to his heavy blonde brow line, collecting in rainbow
droplets before releasing into the dark earth below; this soil never needed
enriching he told me. Our houses were built on Roman remains and I often
imagined our potatoes growing like grapes on top of a magnificent mosaic or bath
house. Dad once dug up a coin with Nero’s head on it but when the local museum
offered him no reward, he decided to encase it in a crazy paving path where he
could admire it as he passed by with his rickety wooden
wheelbarrow.
Beyond the allotments
spread vast fields of wheat leading onto the grounds of the local mental
hospital. Built in harsh red bricks with metal barred windows, there was a
strange ivy-covered tower attached to it like a dark leach. Often curious
individuals wandered into the allotments from there, sometimes appearing naked
and bewildered in our garden like deer caught in headlights. They all had a
strange lost look in their eyes like the captain of a ship gazing far out to
sea. Often or not they’d be dressed strangely … particularly the women with
miss-matched clothing, sometimes with the pattern turned inside out or the
buttons done up wrongly. They never bothered me as they never said much – ‘the
drugs’ my mother used to say. But still, she warned me and my brothers never to
make eye contact with any of them.
It was like that with “the
monkey man” who often pushed his old black metal bike through our estate to the
old rubbish tip. I always wondered why that nickname was given. It’s true his
skin was dark and leathery with a brown wrinkled face and a low forehead, but I
found it curious that he had no tail. I didn’t notice one anyway, unless he kept
it hidden wrapped around the saddle. I never saw him ride that bike either, but
he often returned at dusk with weird objects strapped to it. A spare misshapen
bicycle wheel, a tatty lampshade or a set of pram wheels, which us kids really
coveted as we wanted to make go-karts with them. Mr. A (the bank robber) who
lived in the corner house just before the path to the pits, often shouted
something at the monkey man which made no sense … unless he knew his mother. His
four sons leered and shouted rude words, but the brown man without a tail would
just ignore them and walk on. I wondered if he was deaf or something as he too
had that strange lost look in his eyes.
Mr. and Mrs. A had the best
garden in the street. It was a corner shape, much bigger than all the others and
quite immaculate in every way with an abundance of blooms all the year around.
He was always tending it with his hoe; well that was when he wasn’t in ‘the
nick’. Mrs. A was a quiet plump lady who always wore pretty clothes and
jewellery. She seemed shy and kept herself to herself, particularly when Mr. A
went away for those long vacations; my mother said their marriage was a true
love story. When I became a teenager, she died of cancer. Two weeks later Mr. A
shot himself.
We
all disobeyed our parents sometimes and went to the forbidden pits to skim
stones across the deep murky waters left by gravel extraction; it was thrilling
to live dangerously and if your footing slipped on the bank you’d feel the hairs
prickle down the back of your neck. Once, when it had been snowing, my friend’s
older brother went there with a few friends to skate upon the ice. His friends
came panicking back to his parents with a tale of how their son suddenly
disappeared beneath the ice through a small hole. The police came and searched,
dragging up paint tins, empty bottles and other rubbish all seized together by a
thick, dark, rubbery weed. The next day there was an ambulance in the street;
some policemen carried a body towards the ambulance and my friend’s mother began
screaming and wailing. My mother dragged my arm to pull me back inside the
house; but I just had to look. The boy’s face was a pale porcelain blue colour
with his eyes protruding from their sockets like Dad’s new potatoes, gazing
emptily into the distance. After that my friend’s mum had to stay at the mental
hospital because she kept trying to set their house on fire.
Sometime afterwards, our
next-door neighbour’s daughter knocked one morning when we were eating our
porridge. Her face was as white as a sheet, so Mum and I went with her to find
out why her Mum wouldn’t answer the door; she’d slept at her boyfriend’s that
night and didn’t have a key … I remember she wore amazing blue glittery nail
polish. Peering through the letter box, the girl said her mother’s motor scooter
was still in the hallway. We headed around the back and Mum stood on a box to
peer through the kitchen window; her face became very serious and ashen
coloured. She stepped down, instructing the daughter to fetch our other
neighbour and me to bring her a towel. She strapped the towel around her fist
before smashing the window, allowing a pungent eggy smell to escape. I ran home
to take my brother to school. There were lots of murmurs echoing down the street
afterwards as people recalled the change Mrs. G had asked them all for, for her
gas meter. Nobody had guessed she was depressed; she’d had her hair done that
morning. Nobody knew her husband had a fancy woman and had left her.
Over the years I realised
how strong my mother really was … a woman of poor mental health herself who
suffered with severe asthma and anxiety attacks throughout her life. Dad and I
knelt in prayer for Mrs. G and her daughter in church that Sunday; but my mother
called all church goers hypocrites.
Dad never seemed bothered
when we were there; it was his place of solace … and for me too. Shelling the
peas and broad beans took us away from all the harsh realities of life for a
while … it was our little allotment in time. And his new potatoes were like
beautiful pearls as his fork lifted them like a necklace from the deep ocean of
the earth.
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