by James Bates
Tonic and Lime
A sunny summer day with Mom and
me sitting in our shady backyard. I was four years old, and she was holding me
in her lap. Casually, she pointed and said, "Jerry, look up in the sky. What do
you see?"
I looked and said, "Umm,
clouds."
"Right, honey," Mom said, "Now
look very closely. Do any of them remind you of anything?"
I looked again, starting to get
the feeling I was missing something and maybe letting her down a little. "Maybe,
pillows?" I ventured.
Mom grinned and hugged me
tight. "Oh, honey, I love you so much." I remember that distinctly. She always
had a way of making me feel good about myself, which was nice, because, believe
me, I was never the sharpest pencil in the box.
She pointed in a different
direction, "Look over there. I see something that looks like a horse? Do you see
it?"
I looked. All I saw were cotton
looking clouds. "I see cotton balls," I said.
Mom smiled, having fun I could
tell, playing the art teacher that she was at the local high school. "Let's look
again." She directed my gaze and with her graceful finger outlined the horse she
saw, "There's the head, there's the body, there's the legs and there's the
tail."
"I think I kind of see it," I
said, hesitantly, even though I really couldn't.
"That's okay if you don't," she
smiled and hugged me again. Then she stood up, "Just a second, I'll be right
back." She hurried into the house and returned with a sketch pad and a pencil.
"Here's what I see." And she sketched out a simple drawing of a horse, showing
me each part as she drew: head, body, legs and tail. When she was finished she
said, "Now look in the sky again and this time use your imagination."
Oh, my imagination, so that's
what it took. And that's what I did. I let my mind go free and when I did I was
able to see the horse. Finally. I nodded happily, "Yes, Mom, now I can see it,"
I told her, getting enthusiastic. "Can I try and make my own
drawing?"
"Absolutely." She gave me my
own pencil and paper, "Let's look at more clouds and find something special for
you. What do you see?"
Now that I knew how to look, I
let my imagination take over. I looked for a few moments and then pointed,
"There. I see a doggy," I said, confidently.
"Can you draw it?"
"I'll try." And I did. I drew a
doggy and that's how it all started, Mom and me drawing pictures of clouds
together.
We passed that summer and
subsequent summers thereafter, as often as we could, sitting out doors looking
at the sky and drawing pictures of what we saw. I'm glad we did, because over
time her vision began to fail little by little until, when I was in my early
twenties, blindness from macular degeneration robbed her completely of her
eyesight. After that, we'd sit together in the sunshine and she'd ask if there
were any pictures in the sky, and I'd tell her what I saw and then I'd sketch
them. I think she enjoyed imagining them as much as I did drawing
them.
But it was more than the
drawing for us, much more. It was us being together. We'd talk, I'd tell her
about my day, she'd tell me about hers. We shared our lives. She was able to
instill in me a love of nature, and the sky and the sun and the passing of the
seasons. And a love of clouds, of course. Always the clouds.
She was seventy-nine the last
time we were together. We were sitting outside of her senior living complex on a
warm summer afternoon. The sun was shining and the sky was clear and bright and
blue. "Jerry," she said, "How's the sky looking today? Any good pictures up
there?"
I took her hand, thinking back
over all those years of us together drawing pictures of what we saw in the
sky."Yes, Mom, there are."
"Can you draw me one?" she
asked, just like when I was young.
Today's sky was cloudless, but
it didn't matter. "Sure, Mom. I can do that."
I used my imagination and drew
a picture of a son and his mother, sitting outside on the patio on a warm sunny
day. They were happy and smiling, as if life would go on forever, or at least
their memories would, of soft summer days when the two of them spent time
together, enjoying each other's company and looking at the sky, imagining what
pictures they saw there.
When I was finished I showed
her what I'd drawn. She told me that she loved it.
About the author
Jim lives in a small town twenty miles west of
Minneapolis, Minnesota. His stories have appeared in CafeLit, The
Writers' Cafe Magazine, A Million Ways, Cabinet of Heed and
Paragraph Planet. You can also check out his blog to see more:
www.theviewfromlonglake.wordpress.com.
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